Different

Everyone has posts on New Year's. I don't!

(Screwed eyeliner as you can see, bad lining of the eyes.)

Since I was under a lot of stress, I decided to conduct a mini-'revamp' session for this space right here. Not much of a difference but still you see the little changes here and there. I won't be deleting my archives although it is a new year because it is kind of fun and nostalgic to read your old blog posts in time to come! I know my reason for keeping my archives doesn't seem to be making any sense but still! You know... Yes you know...

xx

To torment oneself with or suffer from disturbing thoughts; fret.

There are times when you worry for another person's well being and future. There are also times when you are more worried than the person you worry for. It stresses you out bad and you really want to try all means just to help that person. However, you don't want to end up being like a total loon nagging and pulling strings to get the little knots here and there. You want to help the person. But at the same time you don't want to end you being an annoying fly that keeps on nagging and bugging the person to try this and that, this and that. You have your reasons, it's not like as if anything the person would have after all the trying, benefits you. It doesn't, not one bit at all. You try and try and try, and also you worry, day in and night out about the results. Will you end up as a loon if you were in my shoes? And that if the person was extremely special, and that he means the world to you?

Would you?

Jingle Bells

I am home on Christmas. Very nice.

All I want is a little more attention.

Hey darling, I hope you're good tonight

The other day Baby & I visited Holland V. I haven't been there in a long while! It was nice going there because it felt like as if I was exploring a part of Singapore that I haven't been to. We had ice cream from Swensens but we took our pictures outside Frolick. Totally regretted not having Frolick!

Well that is all for now. Can't wait for Tuesday! Kallang Lesuire Park with the best friends for Chawanmushi.

x

Jack Pursell

Baby, I got you your shoes already. Why aren't you replying my text message? *worries*

A xx, all the way from the chilly Hong Kong!

Sealed with a kiss

Dear loved ones,

Especially you, bunny boy!

Sidetracking, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY YUN HAO!

Ashes x

The morning mist, the cold breeze

It's 5am in the morning now, and I just ended my video conversation with Bernice. I am worried sick... My boy is fighting a fever now at home in his sleep. Please get well soon.

Hitting the sack now, and I really hope I can go to sleep. I have been having difficulties going to bed recently. The biological body clock, it must have gone hay-wire. Less talking now.

Good night world. xx

Addiction

It is 2:31am now, and I'm chewing on Skittles! Recent addiction!

There, there

I know I am not updating as much as I should be, but at least I am here now, right?

Right.

About a month or two ago, my laptop crashed on me and I had to live on my Sister's and the mini notebook at home, which was pretty much of a hassle. Thankfully, my mother sent it for servicing recently and it managed to pull through it recovered! Not only that, the web cam that was missing for at least 5 months is now installed and ready to capture the camera whore inside of me. I cannot stress how happy am I, over the web cam. I know... I know... CAM-WHORE.

Now, I shall flood you with my snap shots of Today (No, yesterday to be exact).

Spare me alright? I haven't acted cute in a LONG TIME.

My boyfriend would love this photo of me, he thinks I am a pig. Well, if there was a 'like' button to click on, he'll look for the 'love' button. (Y)

Oh yes, I will be flying to Hong Kong on the 11th. I will blog before I leave to wish my dear frog-eyed friend a Happy Birthday!

Ashley

Months

I haven't been here in awhile. I don't know what to say... Maybe it is because I have not been blogging regularly. Things like this happens right?

On a whole, October and November didn't treat me right. However, December should treat me a little better right? Well, the beginning was a little rocky but things are starting to get better now. I see a glimmer of light...

This space looks bare without pictures, and therefore, I will insert a random picture of Huan Ni and I at the Singapore Art Museum on Tuesday.

I guess I am pretty much contented with what I have now, apart from materials that I am dying to possess, like an I-phone and a Mac book!

I promise I will be back, with change!

Over and out, as I roll,

xx

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I will always come back

Wow, it has been awhile since I last actually posted a proper post. Maybe a week or two.

Today, I see myself with ribbon in my hair wrapped around my pony tail, a purple tie dyed shirt and a pair of navy blue shorts slapped on my rather chubby thighs.

Hours ago, I saw myself having late lunch with Baby at Pizza Hut, well... There was a turn in things, and well it was us having an 'almost' free meal in exchange for feeling grossed out.

And later, I will see myself doing up my bunny ears for the so called Bintan trip this Friday. Don't ask me why. It is a party that my Aunties have planned, to be dressed up as an animal. I have decided to be a bunny. Bunny bunny, it reminds me of my boy.

So.. This it it. X

P.S, I am totally digging my nose piercing. No regrets having it pierced for the 2nd time!

I am NOT(In bold and in capital letters) happy.

I know I mentioned that I will only be back here on the 11th. I need to say something to someone or even something.

I am so so very exhausted. I hardly get a good night's rest each night because I stay up at night to revise till let's say 2am? I know that whatever I am doing isn't hardcore at all as compared to everyone else who is taking the exams but let me tell you that all the studying is draining me of my sleep that I am suppose to get each night.

I am very tired... Very very tired.

I need to get some sleep soon.

Oh yes, on a lighter note, I might be having a picnic with my bunny boy on Saturday. Can't wait! For now, I need to spend the last 45 minutes relaxing before I head out to study at Thomson Plaza.

Over and out, as always.

X

Half the battle is won now

My dark eye rings are horrifying, it looks like as if someone punched me the in the eye or some sort. I know that sleeping early is the only solution to get rid of my eye issues but having to go to bed early during this period is almost impossible.

I have completed at least half of the whole exam. I just can't wait for it to be over.

Over and out, I'll be back on the 11th.

I am tired...

Guilt

I feel extremely guilty for not studying today. I attempted to do Math, but I fell asleep for 2 hours and now I have to go out to get my model essay from Daryl and at the same time, have dinner.

I am feeling guilty.

I'm supposed to feel this way right? I'll study when I get back, if not I have to work twice as hard tomorrow.

I'm out.

8 Days

It is totally nerve wrecking and it makes me feel like I have butterflies in my stomach. Last few days to work as hard as I can now, it is the last lap afterall.

I'm going to go all out for this.

To: You

I know you wouldn't want to hear from me hence I didn't contact you as I was afraid you wouldn't be happy. Therefore, I'll pen my feelings in this space here. Hopefully, you would chance upon it and you'll read it.

It's another 3 more days to your 18th birthday and I really hope that I would be able to spend it with you. I have spent most of your birthdays with you and I really wish I wouldn't miss this one. A big one, your 18th. But I heard that you will be working from Thursday all the way to Sunday. I wanted to pop by today but I was afraid you'll shove me away at the sight of me. Therefore, I didn't as I didn't have the guts to. I'm a coward and I don't exactly take risks or chances. I don't know if you have calmed down or you're still angry with me, I really hope you are not anymore. Are you?

I'll be waiting, for your text message, or your call.

With lots of love and apologies,

Ashley